Reflecting Reflections

My eyes meet my gaze at the sight of myself

A person I do not recognize

A person I do not know

I look into me and try to find

The person I was

The person I knew

She blinks as I blink

She shakes her head side to side as I do

She is a reflection of me

Yet she is not

There is an emptiness in me

A vault with nothing to keep safe

A flame extinguished by this nothingness

And a life filled with this smoke

And I wonder

And wonder

Wonder

It feels all too surreal

Yet tangible and reminding

Of the consistency of being volatile

And the remorse of being freed

I trace back to this person again

Gazing beyond the ebony eyes

Beyond the imitation of myself

Only to find everything shatter

And multiply

And ruin

Into these shards I look again

Only to find my world shatter around me

And me around the world

Where this time

I do not know if I can piece back together

The past that was me

And the present that is us.