d e p t h s

i carry in me

this fear of depths.

why would you be

scared of heights?

i kept dreaming

of standing on the rim

of a swimming pool

and as i looked

there was no ground.

i am scared of

never knowing

when the roller coaster of my life bends and rushes

down with me.

i am scared of

deep connections

of letting them to my core.

i am scared of

drowning

in the waves

and in my head.

and of falling

into this hole

and not getting out

not getting out.