dear diary

dear diary,

i met someone new today

he makes me laugh and he seems sweet

dear diary,

i don’t know if he loves me like he says

he doesn’t listen to me anymore

dear diary,

i can’t breathe anymore

i shouldn’t cry more than i smile

dear diary,

he said he’ll get better

he won’t hurt me anymore

dear diary,

he keeps saying it’ll be okay

even though he doesn’t want me

dear diary,

just because i said no doesn’t mean it’s bad

just because he hurts me doesn’t mean he doesn’t love me

dear diary,

help me

dear diary,

he’s gone

and i don’t think i can breathe

dear diary,

how can i move on when he haunts my dreams

how can i move on when all i do is worry

dear diary,

i overdosed

dear diary,

i’m in therapy

dear diary,

i don’t know if i’ll be okay

dear diary,

i don’t have to love him anymore

i don’t have to keep hurting

dear diary,

i can’t remember if i was happy back then

how can i forget when his laugh rings in my ears and the memories keep coming

dear diary,

he raped me back then

dear diary,

i had sex again with someone else

dear diary,

i’m making progress

dear diary,

i’m ready to be okay

-elled