A simple hello and I shut down

I see your name flash across my screen with a new message

And I'm hit with a new wave of panic

What's wrong now?

What terrible thoughts are you about to plague me with now?

What worry are you going to burden me with now?

How do you plan on bringing me down now?

But then I open the message

And you are just saying "I love you"

And I start to think this relationship isn't all what it's cracked up to be

Because even that simple "I love you" causes more panic

Because why would be anything other than negative?

And it makes me worry that you are about to do something stupid

And this life I'm living these days

Sitting around worrying about you constantly

It's not right

Your love shouldn't send me spiraling down a dark path