i don’t get it

I repeat the words again.

And again.

And again.

I don't understand.

Why is everyone laughing?

Oh.

It's wrong.

Of course it's wrong, I knew that.

Why are they laughing?

This isn't funny.

It hurts.

Just like everything else.

And what do I do when I'm hurt?

The tears want to fall.

I want to run.

No one can see me like this.

I can't-

They can't-

I need to heal,

But I won't do it up here.

The world is a stage,

But my pride is my fear.

Why are they laughing?

I'm trying.

I'm trying.

I'm trying,

not crying.

Yet.