learning and losing
-I learned how to leap
-I did the impossible, singing my heart onto the stage I'm on now
-I met my goals, proved myself to me
-I forgot how to hear
-my mouth kept working so my ears didn't have to
-I tired myself with my own head
-I learned how to see
-my eyes were opened to my own imperfections, my own ignorance.
-I saw my absence of sight for myself
-I forgot the truth
-I didn't see that these stains may not be permanent
-I couldn't see that this me was not permanent
-I learned how to lose
-I said goodbye to a friend
-I accepted some of my imperfections
-I forgot how to breathe
-My stomach learned to live with the knots, not frequent, but more frequent
-My breath was stolen by these beautiful souls
-I learned how to learn
-I wasn't a person who I was proud of, but I'm still breathing
-I tried to realize that I won't ever be perfect, but I can be my best.
this year wasn't my best, and there were hard things. but there were also great things. Amazing things. Lessons learned that I wouldn't trade for anything. But these lessons, and the ones above, I still struggle with. A friend once shared with me a quote that has stuck with me. In fact, I have made it my motto for the new year.
“The most important step a man can take. It's not the first one, is it? It's the next one. Always the next step..." -Oathbringer
May 2020 be wonderful in every way.