learning and losing

-I learned how to leap

-I did the impossible, singing my heart onto the stage I'm on now

-I met my goals, proved myself to me

-I forgot how to hear

-my mouth kept working so my ears didn't have to

-I tired myself with my own head

-I learned how to see

-my eyes were opened to my own imperfections, my own ignorance.

-I saw my absence of sight for myself

-I forgot the truth

-I didn't see that these stains may not be permanent

-I couldn't see that this me was not permanent

-I learned how to lose

-I said goodbye to a friend

-I accepted some of my imperfections

-I forgot how to breathe

-My stomach learned to live with the knots, not frequent, but more frequent

-My breath was stolen by these beautiful souls

-I learned how to learn

-I wasn't a person who I was proud of, but I'm still breathing

-I tried to realize that I won't ever be perfect, but I can be my best.

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this year wasn't my best, and there were hard things. but there were also great things. Amazing things. Lessons learned that I wouldn't trade for anything. But these lessons, and the ones above, I still struggle with. A friend once shared with me a quote that has stuck with me. In fact, I have made it my motto for the new year.

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“The most important step a man can take. It's not the first one, is it? It's the next one. Always the next step..." -Oathbringer

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May 2020 be wonderful in every way.