I’d Rather Be

I'd rather be the asshole,

Than be the one who's hurting.

Excuse me, if I'm a bit discerning

I've been there before...

I am not returning.

It's like chapters,

I am finally learning.

I grow numb with every page that I am turning.

You say I'm heartless but that does not disturb me.

Desperation, now that would be concerning.

Fascinations, and sometimes there is yearnings.

To ignore them would be to much conformity.

Monogamy...was never really for me.

I'm sorry if I seem somewhat immorally.

You know; humans are almost always lonely.

We should live by one rule...and that is don't be boring.

Mediocrity...should never be a normal thing.

And settling should always be beyond our means.

True happiness is something we don't always see.

So forgive me if I've killed you with my honesty.

But my gaiety is something only I conceive.

Did I mention; I no longer hurt...you see,

the asshole...

Is something you brought out of me.