Nerves

In my head

Wishing

Blinking

Breathing

Walking

Running

Creating

Realizing

That I

Could be

Something

If I didn't think as much

About winning

Or where I'll stand

Or how good I will be compared

To the people that are better then me

I need to focus on breathing

Because I used to be so smart

But now I'm middling

What's happening

To the me

That focused on reading

Writing

Homework

Dreaming

Believing

In myself

Caring

About myself

Not being afraid

To brag about my accomplishments

Because now I try hard to focus

But the information slips

And I end up

Crying

Hurting

Screaming

Breathing

Breathing

Breathing

Realizing

That I could still be something

If I

Just

Give myself a break