Beast

when

I ceased being me

and reduced to the sadness inside me

I never realised

when

the whirlpool of despair

it chased me everywhere

now rested at the base of my lungs

defined

my nature

suffocated

my thoughts

claimed (the anthropoid)

my head

restless

shell of a human

threatened and threatening

it won or I did

either way

I was already lost

drowning

letting go

it felt good

for a moment

then beat of my heart

longing for air

under the blue

I emerged

I was always more

than a beast

a beast