Dear my love,

Today , I was reminded of the day we first met. I was walking past that park on 'sunflower' street and saw that bench.

Memories flooded my mind .

There you were sat on that bench under the glistening moonlight reading that god awful book you seemed to love so dearly . I was

Lost , first day in a new town is always tricky, and I refused to ask the creep looming in the darkness around the corner for directions . So hesitantly I walked up behind you and taped you on the shoulder ever so gently and you refused to let me walk home alone in the dark , you took my hand and led me into the night. I still to this day don't know why I trusted you but I felt safe around you from the moment I met you . And I will never regret making that wrong left turn on my way home from work. About ten minutes in to our walk to my house , the other side of town , the rain began to fall .

You grabbed my hand tightly and ran under a bus shelter spinning me into your warm embrace. Not only did you take my hand that night but you also took my heart. I know I'd only knew you for minutes but I felt like I had known you for life like our souls were connected in this way so spectacular that the rest of the world began to vanish when you were around .

When you left me at me front porch that night I stood and watch you run through the rain into the distance I wanted so bad to chase after you take your hand and never let go , tell you how I felt but then as I snapped back to reality you were gone. Sleepless nights were then a frequent burden I had to deal with as thoughts of never seeing you again consumed me.

Every waking chance I got I would get on my bike and ride down to that park and sit on that bench waiting for you to turn up. The day I had lost all hope and was on my way home I realised that I had left my sketch book on the bench . I had this sudden feeling like everything was going to be ok and I began running for my book . I was so shocked to see you sat right there in that exact same spot as I was sat just a few minutes previously. I was frozen . Watching you as you sat there ,what seemed to be reading your book, was so calming for me. That was untill I realized your book on the floor next to the bench . That's when you done it.

You turned around , and you saw me . A tear in your eye you ran to me and hugged me tightly while holding my sketch book open to a page that held a drawing of the two of us and every diary entry I had written since I met you .

It's been 43 years since that day yet I can't get those feelings out of my head .

I finally told them this story yesterday our kids loved it . Bringing up old memories of you still hurt though and I don't think I can ever move on especially when I can feel your spirit guiding me through life without you.

But don't worry John that bastard won't get away with it I will have him locked up for good for what he done to you .

But I guess what I really wanted to say is I love you and miss you . I'm almost finished here I can feel my time is short so don't forget about me , I'll be there soon .

, Love mollie

Xxxx