If Only I Understood

If only I understood the limitations of what you were willing to give me. If only I had taken more chances when it came to you. If only I looked beyond family's and society's expectations of what I needed in a relationship. If only I took advantage of the incredible chemistry we had together despite knowing it would never last. If only I understood that life is not a romance novel. If only I had focused on the reality of what we were instead of reaching for something you weren't willing to give. If only I were brave enough to take what I craved from you. If only I listened to our reality rather than creating a fantasy world. If only I understood us better, I would have closure and acceptance for what things were.