If only

If only I said I loved you more

If only I kissed you more

If only I knew what those moments ment.

If only I could hold you,

and smell you,

and be with you.

If only my life was normal and

we could be together.

If only the pain was lost

and the promises were true.

If only I didnt need to doubt you

Forever and always.

If only you could care for me

the way I care for you

If only my lifeless shell could be filled

with your presence.

If only I learned to treasure the small things.

Like hearing you,

the memorys,

Hearing your name

feeling the pulse and my wrist

and know that the blood

is yours.