First.

The first time someone told me that they loved me

I went down a list of what I thought were my flaws...

"You love me even though______?"

"You love even if______?"

And he sat there

And he listened

And he said he still loved me

No matter what flaw I pointed out

But then he fell in love with another girl

Who was perfect where I was flawed

And that motherfucker ruined me

Because now I KNOW I am not good enough

And I know there is always going to be someone better.

I'm imperfect even in my perfection

And that is a damn shame,

Cause I might have been able to love you better and harder than anyone else

But because you chose sunshine over moonlight.

You chose to hold her perfectly manicured hands.

You chose to break my heart.

I don't know if you lied,

But you ruined love for me.

You were the first person I had ever loved, that I had ever felt safe enough with to show my heart.

Now I'm damaged

And i can't see where my heart ends

And the scar you left begins.

And I guess maybe that's why you aren't just my first love, but my only love.

-ashleyanne