The Truth About You
Love, what is love? There are so many types of love, how do you truly tell the differences between them all? And where is the line of lust and love? Is there even a line, or is it just a grey space between the black and whites of the world?
Love has always been something that you had an issue with, you always love so easy, and confuse love with lust. You hold so much love in your heart, and you have such a trusting mind that you believe everyone that says that they love you.
When love isn’t really what you want, what you want you can never truly find in anyone. The validation that someone could actually love you for who you are, someone could actually see through it all and truly love you.
You can never quite figure out the difference between lust and love, and you confuse love for lust and push those that love you and hold you dear away, and hold the dangerous ones as close to you as you can.
This is far from your fault, you can’t control the way that you see love, all you believe is that no one truly loves you, that you are and always will be leaveable. That you will never find the hand that will hold yours with the truest intentions. You will always believe this, and with this you will never have faith in yourself to do anything on your own. You will forever search for validation for everything you do, you will always seek acceptance and you will never accept yourself for who you are, or who you think you are anyway.
Truth is, you don’t even know or understand yourself, you are, you always have been lost. You have no idea how to find your way, and you don’t trust yourself to let someone else help you find the right way, and yet you search every face you know for the right answers.
Even though you may not have the answers to your questions, to your life, you somehow solve everyone else’s issues. Somehow you can hold everyone else’s issues so well, you can help others and tell them how to get out of it alive, but you’re drowning in your own issues.
You pride yourself in being strong and confident but all you really are is a lier and a coward. You tell other people to face their fears and to face their feelings. You talk them off a ledge, but little do you realize that you are on the ledge yourself.
You’re so afraid to let someone down that you take everything they throw at you in silence, and you never ask for help yourself. You shut them out when they come close to seeing somethings wrong and you tighten your grip. You’re so afraid that if they see you breaking like this that they will see weakness and they will leave you.
You do one of two things at this point. You either push them so far away and leave them before they can leave you, or you push your emotions down and don’t let them see so that they dont leave. You are incapable of showing your truest and rawest emotions to people, and that right there is your fatal flaw.