chemistry 101

you remind me of someone i knew

someone i know

lips just the right shape and color

glancing at me from behind your hair

trying to hold back your smile

i catch you looking at me

hands strong like his

same shoes

but you don’t smell like him

there are no butterflies in my stomach

my perpetual urge to smile isn’t there

time doesn’t stop when i see you

i can talk without stuttering

your name isn’t his

my body isn’t reacting

i know i won’t daydream about you

nightdream about you

i won’t look for you in random places

hoping i bump into you

i’ll look for him

waiting

wishing

longing

to feel him in my arms again