Confused.

I’ve come to a crossroads. One that I knew I would have to face someday.But I always thought I would be ready for it. Such confidence, such certainty, seems no where to be found, now that I’ve reached this turning point. I’ve let myself and those I care about down in ways I never could have imagined. Not because I wanted to, but I woke up one morning and realized that I just did. But then again, maybe it’s because I was so sure about which path I would take when the time arrived. Now that it has, I’m not sure if my past desires are in harmony with those of my present. And that scares me. Maybe I should pick a different path, one that my heart yearns for. One that I could do justice to. But then again, I wonder if that would be the safest thing to do. I've reached my most awaited crossroads, and I’m not sure which way I’d like to go.