Daddy

I always wondered why my daddy left

Was I not good enough?

Why did he choose drugs over his own daughter?

The absense of my father's presence

Has psychologically fucked me up well into adulthood

I always wondered why he didn't love me

Did I ever cross his mind?

I grew up loathing myself

Thinking there was something wrong with me

Since my dad so easily walked away.

I grew up hating men

Seeing my father in their eyes

I broke so many hearts in vain.

I became the type of girl who refused to get her heart broken,

so I became the destroyer of love.

My daddy broke my heart before I was even born.

Because of him, I have always been afraid of falling in love,

Yet I gave myself to boys who never deserved to see me

So naked and vulnerable.

I never cared what happened to me

Nothing could compare to the pain that dawned on me

All I wanted was my daddy.