without

at times my heart cracks open and I bleed

until my tears run dry

the realization of how much I miss you

hitting me with double force

and those moments

when I forget,

I forget to remember you

as if you were never gone

present somewhere near

but never leaving a trace

nothing touchable

yet comforting

as if you were still here

I miss you

I wish you were still here

so I could say it out loud

to you

not just to the wind in my heart

I miss you

maybe you heard me this time

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