Artful Mind

I can close my eyes and see an array of lights, sequencing beautifully. I can sit in silence and hear myself conduct a symphony. I can watch a movie, written by me, starring my favorite actors in my favorite genre. All in my head. If only I knew how to write a symphony on paper. How to create a beautiful light show. How to direct a movie. Unfortunately, the only people who can teach me to express my imagination will also teach me to kill it. I can let the restraints, editing, publishing, critiquing, and the element of failure destroy my imagination, or I can keep that imagination. Pure, unadulterated, unedited by the public and allow myself to fully enjoy the artwork of my mind. To me, the choice is simple. I can't live off imaginary checks.