Don’t Antagonize Me

Don't antagonize me

Don't say you know me

Don't pretend like you care

Because when I was lighting myself on fire

You weren't even there

When I was leaving marks on my skin

Where were you then?

When I was silent, consumed in my own depths

You didn't work to bring me up,

Or as what was wrong

You called me a slut,

Made me feel like I didn't belong

Yet I already knew

That this was true

That I had no place in this world

This squad was not my own

I stand on the outside

And I walk the road alone

I am the caretaker of the garden

The one who makes sure everything is okay

But one day

When I'm not there

Who will come and take me by the hand

And ask why I don't want to stand on this land

Who is there to keep me from carving deeper

The burns in my skin

So deep I fly in the sky

And join those who sleep

Who is there too help me bare

The weight of the day

Who is there to try and make things okay

I am the pedals that fall from a flower

Slowly lost in the earthy soil

Never cherished,

Just left there to lie

Left there to die

Solitary and alone

Without a home

Without someone to love me

Or someone to even say they care

Because when I needed you there

You turned away

I was stuck with the words I couldn't say

And still, you can't utter my name

Without bringing distain

And your always worsening my pain

Just let me lye here

And let my brain recharge

Let the healers restart my heart

As it beeps with a flat line

Join with the race of time

Don't build me a shrine

Please

Help me live

Help me forgive

Don't let me die unloved