When I Decide...

he laughs at me

he always laughs at me

i dont know why

iam just a school girl

as iam only a nerd

dont have the ability to kiss

dont have the ability to touch boys

iam very frigid as my mother never

ever tells me about boys

but this is not about my mother

this is about one boy who hates me

or loves me or maybe will love me

i dont know, i only know this much

our relationship was never romantic

or even platonic for that matter

it was only schoolmates

but he teased me, gave me lunch

and shared my secrets, he began bothering me

he began noticing me, he laughed at my jokes

as i became a beautiful girls with big breasts

he was a huge fan was mine, i am deeply confused

i dont want him anymore, as a boyfriend

i have too many friends, i have too many chores

i have too many interests and hobbies

i only want to go to college, earn a degree

so i leave him to be, he turned out ugly like a demon

i dont want to see him anymore, i dont want him

he annoys me very much, i hate him, i have always hated him

and so our misbehaviour turns out to hurt him

yes, i have hurt him, but thats the thing,

i dont ever ever want him, i have somebody else in my mind

someone who will date me, kiss me, and love my new body

so i leave the nightmare and i decide to leave him forever!