I don't think I've ever been as

Lost as I feel right now.

No one has ever

Broken such a vow.

Feeling lost and alone.

I should be used to this.

It's not like I've grown

Used to being wanted.

I honestly don't know where

I'm going with this

The words just appear there

And somewhat make sense.

I don't know what

I'm doing anymore.

Feeling alone and scared.

Maybe I close the door...

To life? To writing?

To music? To love?

Close the door without fighting?

For what I need the most?