The Pain of Feeling Numb

There's nothing more painful than the moment you realize you're numb.

When the stranger on the street calls you a fat freak and it doesn't even make you bat an eye.

When your grades fall lower than they ever have before...where once you would have thought the world was ending you now shrug and toss the test in the trash with the rest.

When the person you had just finally begun to open up to reminds you why you were so closed off to begin with and instead of shedding a tear you delete their number without a second thought.

The moment that started it all, however, was when you sat there watching the blood swirl down the drain, the sting on your flesh still fresh, and you felt nothing. Absolutely nothing.

So here I sit and tell you that feeling pain is a gift as I write this with an echoing numbess in my chest.