The two options were imminent, my mind was already made

I

Live in my purest form

I

See all the birds that swarm

I

Can’t feel the life inside

Lost

in a blank demise

I

Hear my own ghost calling

He

Tells me that I’m falling

I

Just can’t withstand the truth

And

Succumb my lively youth

So

Here I beg and plead

Against my own beliefs

I

Sound off on beds and leaves

I

tell the help I need

But

I hear no response

The

Sign of a fleeting god

I’m

so Lost in time and space

I

Wish that my life erased

When

I know I feel this pain

I

Try to avoid the reign

Of

My own terror

But it’s

So deep inside me

I

Can’t see that deep inside me

But

I swear that it can see me

I

Swear that it controls me

So I

Guess I’m a living goat

But

Not in the way I hoped

I

See that my life was wrote

Not in the tone i needed

Underneath it all

Against my minds resolve

I

Guess I keep on breathing

What is this life I’m leading

And if I died today

I know who I’d be leaving

I just can’t stand that thought

But

What does it matter

If I’m in a bleak abyss

I wouldn’t feel their pain

I wouldn’t hear their cries

No remorse or sorrow

But still I know they pray

That I wake up tomorrow

And for that I’m sorry

Mama please forgive me

I didn’t have an option

I stood on that ledge

And saw the flames approaching

I had to choose a death

Dead or alive I bargained

For a better life

But it never came

Once again I’m sorry

know you’re not to blame

And when you seek that ledge

I know you’ll feel the same

But

When we both arrive

Locked in eternal flames

The flames from which we ran

Stand

Trial as a saint

But

I find peace in how

My feet left the ledge

The way the wind erupted

The way my body loved it

Gave me a taste of free

And

That’s enough for me