Dear Monster,

Broken. Damaged. If you asked me to describe myself that’s what I would say.

For the last 3 years since the night you broke me. Do you think about that night? I do. Do you remember telling me that if I just relaxed it wouldn’t hurt? I do. Did you know I can’t smell vodka without remembering that night? Monster I know you don’t care about that night. To you it wasn’t a big deal and I bet if asked you dont really remember me. I bet if told my name you would say “yeah we dated.” and that would be it. Because I didn’t play a big role in your life but Monster you tore mine a part. I dated the perfect guy right after you and because of how badly you damaged me i ruined it. And then I ruined the next one and next one. Monster, because of you I can’t trust anyone. Monster, because of you I make them jump threw so many hoops they get tired. Monster, because of you I cling to any chance someone would actually want someone as broken as me. But monster? That ends today. Today I’m taking back my life from you. I’m taking back my future from you. Because monster you are a rapist and I am a warrior that you can’t and won’t break for ever. You broke me for a moment but that moments over. Monster? Did you know that every 7 years every cell in your body’s will have died and been replaced? That means I’m on my way to a body that you will have never touched. I am literally in the process of being reborn post you. Not broken and damaged but beautiful and whole again. So Monster? we are done here. Suck it.