Sometimes...

Sometimes I think I’ve lived too long

Taken up too much time on this planet

Covered too much space

That’s just how life is

Sometimes I think I’ve changed too many people

Made them to be exactly who I need

It doesn’t matter that they aren’t who they were

We have more in common now

That’s just how life is

Sometimes I think the world would be better without me

The arguments caused by me wouldn’t exist

Everyone could live in peace

As they did before I came

And ruined everything

That’s just how life is

Sometimes I think I’m too hard on myself

But then I remember how much is my fault

I remember all the lies I’ve told

And all the grudges I just can’t let go

That’s just how life is

Sometimes I think I should be less controlling

I like to know exact details about everything

I like to make sure everything is going according to plan

That can get in the way of things sometimes

I need to trust others to do the right thing more often

That’s just how life is

Sometimes I think I need to do something about my procrastination

But I don’t know how

It keeps me from writing and doing school work

I know it’s an inconvenience

But I don’t know how to stop it

I don’t know how to force myself to do what I need to

That’s just how life is

Sometimes I think I’m a complete mess

Because of all the reasons listed above and more

I don’t know how to change myself

I don’t know if I’m really fine

And the only reason I think otherwise is that I’m unconfident

That’s just how life is

Sometimes I wish I could just disappear

I wish I could stay in one place for the rest of my life

And never have to worry about anything

And never have to do anything else

But that’s just not how life works

Sometimes, I just wish things were different

But I have to live with what I have

I have to be happy with what I have

Because it’s all I will ever have

Unless I make a change

And I can’t see myself doing anything drastic

It’s just how life works