Rage

I won't fight for you anymore

You've let anger eat away at you

Rust corroding your long-forgotten heart

Hate lives in all you say and do

You come ready to start wars

Venom laced through every word

Hurting those who love you most

Leaving their thoughts deliberately unheard

Every day is a battle you create yourself

If there isn't a conflict you make one

Throwing out slurs and curses

Everyone's happiness coming undone

I am not angry; I'm too tired for that

Whoever it is you used to be

When you go off and it all breaks loose

I know you don't even see me

You haven't seen anyone for so long

Constructing conflicts in your head

Brick by brick, building jagged walls

A cathedral whose windows tint it all red

Consumed by your own rage, I know

You won't notice my leaving

And as I stand in the door it hits me:

I'm not angry, I'm grieving