A picture worth a thousand words...

Feeling numb is something I am an expert at. If this statement is true, than why is it so hard to offer you a description in words? Don't take my word for it. Look at me. There is proof in my photographs. That far away look. Eyes down to the side. Hands clenched on my tight stomach. It is me in the picture but I am not there.

Feeling numb is a condition of living in the abstract. The body is alive in real time while the mind is fraught with worry blocking any opportunity for real time experiences. If I could give advice to my numb self I would say to myself, "Find a way to take a vacation from you."