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Chapter 11 of 23
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never.

I trusted you.

I loved you.

Never again.

I've fallen in love twice and it's ended the same way, "I can't do this anymore."

"I'm not sure if I'm depressed. I mean, I'm not sad. But I'm not exactly happy either. I can laugh and joke and smile during the day, but sometimes when I'm alone at night I forget how to feel." -Anonymous

You were the only one who could save me when I tried to kill myself and things just got worse. I thought I could trust you.

"Take a chance on love," they said. "Maybe he'll be different," they said. You were different until I realized that you're just the same as the rest of them.

"I left him because I didn't want him to see me suffer like this." a.r.

That's why I left him. Not why you left me. You left me because- I can't say why but it still hurts.

You meant everything to me,

and maybe that wasn't okay-

maybe I shouldn't've been so attached.

But that who I am.

When I love someone- I love with my whole self.

When I cry, I don't cry for one reason, I cry because of everything.

I tried to completely get rid of the memory of you, but there's a picture I can't erase- the ony picture of us together. I can't rid the memory of you. But I have to. You aren't coming back and I know that.

You just stopped talking to me that day. No notification, nothing.

But maybe that's okay. It teaches me to eventually move on.

Never again.

Never again will I fall in love.

Never again will I trust anyone.

Never again will I try.

Never again will I dress for a guy.

Never again will I do anything to please anyone.

I am my own person and I don't live for others.

You can't control me anymore.

I used to be your puppet, I'd be startled with joy at your name but now I shudder in pain. I used to be a marionette, you controled me and my strings but now? I cut my strings and I hold myself up. You can't stop me.

Never again will I be hurt. I'm too strong for that.

I am 21 years or older.