My teachers and my classmates asked me, "why are you so quiet?" And I just shrug.

My mom asked me, "are you feeling alright? Why are you not socializing like others? Are you having a hard time? Are you being bullied? Do you have friends? Why don't you have one?" I fight my tears back and just shrug. "No mom, i'm not being bullied at school. I'm fine. It's hard for me to socialize but I'm fine. I have a couple of friends of course."

That's the truth. But it just missing some more.

I looked at my own reflection and asked, "why are you so quiet? Why are you not socializing like others? Are you having a hard time? Are you feeling alright?" A tear fell out my eyes.

I don't know the answers.

I'm still trying to figure out why.

I'm having a hard time looking for the answers.

I do have some theories. It can be because of me being scared to speak because english is my second language, therefore I stutter a lot.

It can also be because I am just like this, shy and quiet.

I deny these theories, because i can be pretty fluent when i'm comfortable and i can lively person when i'm with someone i'm comfortable with.

I don't know. Or maybe i just don't want to know.