A different kind of pain.

Having cramps is a different kind of pain than getting some kind of cut, getting hurt some way by accident or on purpose. To me it's different in the way that it's almost like a good kind of pain but at the same time I wish the pain never comes.

Whenever I am on my period it's never a pleasant thing for me, or any other girl who has it. I just want to lay in bed, eat some sweets, lay under the covers, and wish for the pains to stop.

But the pain, sometimes unbearable, makes me long for someone to be in bed with me. For them to lay down with me and let me cuddle up into them. I long to have their arms wrapped around me with their hands just placed on my lower abdomen, maybe even softly rubbing soothing little circles over my skin. I would like to think that the person that I would be cuddled up to could just take the pain away.

The pain just by itself makes me dig my nails into the palms of my hands, sometimes my arms or thighs where it doesn't hurt that bad. But when I do that the pain is usually so bad that I'm digging my nails into my skin so hard I think I might break the skin. That usually does happen when I'm in school or I have nothing to take for the pain.

It just really sucks! This pain in my lower abdomen, which comes in waves, makes me more prone to snapping at someone over the smallest thing. It makes me want to sleep the day away so I don't feel the pain. I just want to stay in bed, sleep, watch movies, be in the dark, and watch movies with one to tell me what to do.

So I guess that's what the pain is like for me. Its just waves of pain that make me kind of sad and realize how lonely I feel.