We used to and now

We used to meet. Ice cream, throwing at each other during fights. 

We used to see our emotions and know the sound of each other's voice when things went downwards. 

But now, dear best friend, I can't remember the sound of your voice when you're at the edge of crying as you're always hiding emotions before sending an audio message. 

Now I try to get your style of writing to know how you really feel.