Alone

Cold, empty, still.

I wish that's what it felt like.

Instead it's just a chill,

In a warm room full of bodies.

People that don't know me.

Lives that aren't like mine.

My head screams that I'm a stranger.

An outsider, a renegade.

It's so loud, I can't hear myself whisper

That I'll make it out alive.

Trapped in my emotions, regret is a heavy weight.

Hope flickers but dies out.

Flames can't burn in this void.

No love, no laughter.

No one really cares if I'm alive.

Failure pounds in my ears

Hurt aches in my chest.

But I just keep walking,

Trying not to hold my breath.

Light starts to creep in, and this time I just let it.

What will it hurt to allow love in?

I don't think I'll regret it.

I feel my burdens lifting.

The voice that says I'm pathetic

Dims and dies as I chase the light. 

I won't stop until I get it.

Doubts come flying at me now, every minute feels like forever.

I keep moving forward.

People I know are everywhere. 

The more I walk, the more I see,

We're all just making our way.

On the same path, different struggles but we're all sinners.

I'd give it all up to know that light

It's not just for beginners.

Hold on they say, don't give up.

The loneliness gets thinner.

The light is closer than ever now,

But so is loomingh failure.

I hear a voice I don't recognize

Encouraging and tender.

At first I want to tune it out,

Go back to being a stranger,

But then it really grabs my heart

And starts to make me feel better.

I never thought I'd get this far, 

And I could give up in an instant,

But I think I'll see what this light's about,

If only for a minute. 

One minute at a time.

Just go one more minute.