when 

              i say that i 

              hate myself

              i don't want

               you to say 

                  that i 

      am beautiful and great 

i know  that i am not   any of

that.    i am me and     that

is the   problem. i am   going

to be   the problem     until

the      day the i die     which 

i do     hope is soon     and 

if it      works, im so    sorry

that     i couldn't stay   and

that     i couldn't have   been 

any     happier  believe   me,

i         tried so    hard to   be

          strong       but i

          fear           i can't

          keep         this

          lie up        any

          more         i am

          so,so         sorry

          but i          just

          want         to die

          please        let me