How Dare You
How dare you
How dare you stand there
And tell me that my life choices
Aren’t ok with you
That I just need to be quiet
And stop whining
Put down the words
That cut through your smoke and mirrors
To accept the way things are
This is the best it’s gonna get
How dare you
Sit behind that desk
And tell me
“I can help you through this”
“We can deal with this together”
“This doesn’t have to be you”
But this is me
I don’t need to deal with it
Or to be helped through this
I am enjoying the ride
Because I have been afraid
Afraid of the drop
For too long
And I’ve finally let myself reach the top
Ready to fall
How dare you
Tell me to wait
To try harder
Do you know how many hours I have wasted
On my knees
Begging a God who doesn’t care
For an answer different than the one he gave
In his books of “love”
Waiting for an answer that will never come
That book is your truth
I walked away from it
When I was told
That love can be a sin
How dare you
Tell me that loving her is sin
When holding her in my arms
Makes all the pain
Left by the fight
To find a God who will answer
Fade away
Leaving no marks
She makes me feel worth something
To someone
She is the only thing
That has made me feel something positive
In years
She is my everything
How dare you
Tell me that I am evil
For loving in a different way
When I have spent
My entire life
Picking up pieces of myself
From the ground
Where others like you left them broken
From your “love”
And moved on
Leaving me to superglue my soul
Back together
With confidence that I
Am running out of
How dare you
Judge the way I arrange
These 26 letters on a page
Because it’s too dark
It’s too vulnerable
It’s too real
It’s too much
I fight with my mind
Wrestle with my demons
For every single word I put down
And it leaves me
Too exhausted to care
What you think
I don’t need to be quiet
I don’t need to “work through this”
To believe
To fight my feelings
To be “righteous”
To censor myself
All for your comfort
I am enough
I dare you.
Tell me otherwise one more time.