(using a line from 30 of my poems)

i. of love and loss

I call, yet you don't hear

Instead, your hand squeezes my heart

I long to be loved, 

My heart is hardened and cold

Missing the feel of being yours. 

ii. of pain

I can't live any longer

While I'm bursting at the seams. 

Just give me another chance;

I'm tired of trying,

I'm sick of this fight, 

I shut the world away.

iii. of fear

I'm most afraid of

Unanswerable questions, like

Where will I go if I only believe in Hell?

I'll forever be scared of losing everyone, 

I see it sometimes in your eyes;

It's a fear of dying.

iv. enemy 

You had malicious intent

And even after this, you wouldn't let me in. 

You were not the air I breathed, 

You feed me the lies, 

But I'm addicted to you.

v. reflections on character

I like the feeling of this moment

But we don't live in a perfect world;

A lot of things can destroy me. 

I need to trust more and fear less,

Yet all my thoughts are trapped, my words all cease.

Your silence screams at me, 

But [is] beautiful nonetheless.

I don't want to change.