I’ve always been wrapped up in sheets

the first time you kissed me

I mean really kissed me

I cried

it was unexpected

uncontrollable

instant

I wasn't ready to let you see

my broken bits

as they stung my eyes

so I let them stain your shirt

unquestioning you held me

though later you admitted

your confusion and concern

convinced it was your fault

even though it was anything but

my sadness was a sunflower seed

planted in my lips by his

bursting forth with the wet of yours

you broke the heart I had

tirelessly taped back together

accidentally reopening

a thousand infected wounds

breaking though thorns

in search of greenery

and I think this

was the moment

that people speak of

when I let you love me

(it wasn't til two months later

I let myself fall for you)

I am carelessly gentle

spending every saving

on gossamer and wool

I felt naked

unearthed

a bulb unblooming

plucked from the bosom of my bed

made to spread

unformed petals

in hope of strengthening

the shine of my eyes

I do not think you were sent here

to save me I think

you did that

accidentally