Up to Me

If I'd thought about it I never would've done it

I guess I would've let it slide

If I'd-a paid attention to what others were thinkin'

The heart inside me would've died

But I was just too stubborn to ever be governed by enforced insanity

Someone had to reach for the risin' star

I guess it was up to me

- Bob Dylan "Up to Me."

Bob Dylan wrote this song for his Blood on the Tracks album. Its easy to see where he is going with these words but to me this has a deeper meaning than to what he is alluding to.

I am in the midst of a career crisis where I am very underemployed, underused and definitely at a loss for a challenge.

I have been in sales for the past 14 years and before that used my people skills to help increase the sales in my family business.

I am at a crossroads where my choices are truly limited.

I am in pain as I wait for a sign from anywhere...

When I hear this song and the words are sung it touches a cord within me that I need to follow my own path - time is running out for me and I must stay true to me.

No one else can truly understand - I guess its gonna be up to me.