Baby don’t think I’ve seen evil guys in sheep clothing but sadly I know those guys to well.

Don’t be like them is all I ask for.

Don’t raise a hand at me like my last

Don’t tell me you want me when you only want what god made

Don’t tell me you want me when you are in ur room alone realizing you hurt me

Don’t tell me you need me when the other girl rejected you

I’m special and I want you to treat me like ur one and only. I want you to make me feel loved not pain. So please don’t hurt me

I would cut my paper thin skin open with a piece of metal that helped me feel alive

Just that second is all i needed to feel alive.

I want to keep running it against my skin

I go deeper & deeper just to feel alive longer.

I would starve myself for days apon weeks

I just wasn't hungry.

I didn’t want to fall back to my old habits again.

Just to know im alive is what matters to me

I remember

you

holding me in your arms on the beach

telling me everything will be ok.

but

I remember

you holding her in your arms on the beach telling her everything will be ok

I wake up everyday wanting to die thinking how much better it would be

I go to school just so im safe from the devil that lives in my house

“I don’t wanna go home”

When i eat i can feel my stomach try to upchuck all of the food

“I’m sick”

I feel like a corpse as i walk from class to class

I am over this

All you wanted from me was my heart

I can't do that for you

It’s already broken

You just wanted me to fix you while you break me

I never thought I would want to be so far from you

with your million bullets you shot me down with

I don't wanna see you

-to the player who killed me with pain

What have you learned in life?

I have learned happiness doesn’t matter

All that matters is how much you spend for a education that you learn all the useless history of america that isnt applied to any job

You learn how a guy named martin luther nailed a paper filled with 95 theses to a chruch door in 1517

What have you learned in life?

You held me for 10 months

You birthed me

You feed me

You cared for me

You watched me grow up

You took her in

You didn’t birth her.

You favor her like she is a god

You treat me like a servant

I feel as if im better gone with no contact.

She is a better daughter then I will ever be.

-mom

She is a ass

She is more bitchy than any girl you know

She is the devil when she is mad

But..

She is the reason i am here

She is my other half

She is my best friend

most of all..

She is my life line.

-i love you