I heard it,

I heard the song of your soul.

I listened,

Every moment I stole.

The call of you,

Led me to your sweet song.

Every note,

Played so courageously strong.

Your soul,

Strummed its way to me.

And mine,

Loved your song instantly.

The tune,

Of an entwined us.

Shall sing out,

Where all souls trust.

We’ll dance,

Laugh and love.

That soul song,

Heard below and above.

Everywhere,

That’s where it’ll be.

Like us,

Singing and free.

I loathe the quiet times

Because that is when the missing of you gets loud.

I have a hole in my heart

An unfillable void.

I don’t know how to sate it

Satisfy its sadness.

I miss your laugh.

I miss your humour.

I miss you.

I never talk about it

It silently festers without a word.

But it hurts.

God, it hurts.

When I would embrace you

I miss that chuckle you’d do whenever I did.

And the happiness

From just seeing me, would wonderfully emanate from you.

I miss that.

I miss how it made me feel.

I miss how I made you feel.

… I just… miss you.

I had a dream about you last night,

I didn't see the whole of your face

Just the profile...still a beautiful sight.

The years have been many

Yet, you randomly still haunt me

Why? The reason? I don't have any.

The dream version of you

Seems to like dropping by

Seems to like slipping through.

They say you shouldn't regret anything

But I do, I always have

That distant hurt, it still gives me a sting.

I messed up

I did the messiest mess up

I drank from the foolish cup.

I hurt you

I humiliated you.

God, what did I do?

My sorry has never been heard

It lingers within memories

Lingers amongst that past hurt.

You found another

As did I

And yet, the missing of you I still achingly suffer.

I'll always wonder

I'll always dream

I'll always hunger.

For what we briefly had

Quickly lost

Could never have.

It's stupid

Pointless

Torturously lucid.

All the above is true

So unforgivingly true

.....but that's…that's the lasting echo of you.

Her vulnerability

Her pureness,

Expose her

To what consumes.

My arms invisibly

Reach around,

To protect her

From a world that’ll devour.

Devour her sweetness

Devour her innocence,

Strip her of all

She angelically is.

She is a darling

Kind to the core,

With a soul

Too lovely for this world.

Maternal instinct

Wills me to shield her,

Shield her from harm,

Unhappiness and stress.

A silent promise

I have made to her,

And silent protection

I have promised to give.

I'm here, invisibly so

I speak, I write, in solemn silence

My voice unheard

My words white noise

All I do is without a choice

My pen, my heart, simply ignored

No pain, no gain, a nothingness

My soul says walk

But my heart takes root

This is who I am, who I rightly suit

I'm around, only unseen

Around the periphery of life

My words unread

My thoughts unknown

Tired, I have so sadly grown

An outsider, undiscovered

Who will scribe all within her

Until the words run out

And the mind goes mute

Invisibly so, in my writers suit