Do you ever feel like you’re stuck in your own head like every bad thing about you just keeps replaying over and over again until you just break?
The way he hurt you, the pain keeps stabbing you the words “I don’t want you” never leave his lips when he said that to you. You’re broken and you can’t be fixed.
As he looked down at his feet he whispered the words I love you.
His eyes rose to her face, he looked her in the eye and said “I have always loved you” he thought she would run that she would never feel the same but instead she answered with the same three words that he had been dying to hear since the first day he met her.
I love you, those are the only three words I can think of when I think of you. You brought light to my life and I wouldn’t want it to be anyone else. I’m so glad that I found you because you push the bad memories away and make new amazing ones and I couldn’t ask for anything more. When I want to cry you make me smile when we fight you make me laugh and all I can say is thank you. Thank you for everything, I love you.
I don’t remember it very well
I was only 5
But when I close my eyes I see you screaming
I’m not scared of you
I’m scared of myself
You gave me so much pain and anger
You said sorry
You couldn’t even look me in the eye
I don’t think you care
I want to ask you why
Why did you do it so many times like it was normal
Why did you put me through so much pain
I still blame myself
I am now 15 and I still ask what did I do wrong to make you hate me
My counsellor says I am very strong
But I’m not
I’m just good at hiding that I am dying inside
That I am scared of what I could do if I let it all out
I want to ask how do you still look me in the eyes and pretend it’s okay
I hurt myself in my sleep now
I am scared I will turn into you
I can’t say I hate you because I don’t
I don’t feel anything towards you
I just want to know why.
Trying to gather my thoughts
Fragments and pieces lost
And I’ve splintered slowly over time
From the way you get left behind
Maybe I’m better off
Cause you’ve broken me
A million pieces round my feet
You can’t say to me
“It’s gonna get better”
And you took my heart
Left behind a healing scar
Medicine can only go so far
To help you get better
But you’re still broken
It’s been a month since we last talked.
I still miss you more than anything.
I still wish at 11:11 that you will come back.
I know you won’t but hey I’m still going to try.
I never got over you.
You’re stuck in my mind.
You made me so happy how am I meant to forget that.
Have you forgotten it?
Or do I still cross your mind like you cross mine.
Who am I kidding of course you don’t why would you.
Everyone said we we’re cute together I thought so too.
You didn’t have a reason to leave but you still did.
You promised you wouldn’t I bealived you.
I was so stupid I bealived you.
Even though you hurt me I know I will come back if you need me.
I know you still want me I see you looking at me.
I see the way you look at me.
Just come back I don’t understand why you left.
Just come back.
Love is just a four letter word these day
It used to mean something
Now It's nothing
Sex used to be making love
Now it's just for fun
I may be young but I want love
I don't want games
I don't want broken hearts
I want that four letter word that no one cares about
I want love
But I guess I will just have to learn that feelings don’t matter anymore.