im so scared of the future

of the things that doesn't exist

im so scared of the present

of the feelings i have every day

im so scared of the past

of the memory i can't erase

me chest hurts

too many thing i want to say,

so many times getting hurts

but i always say its going to be okay

i want to tell you my secrets

i want to

but i cant

im scared

you'll hurt me

it hurts so fucking bad

i wanna d

maybe one of the saddest thing in life is when you feel the need to erase that one specific memory forever,

it doesnt always have to be a sad memory,

it could be something that makes you smile at night,

but now,

everytime you remember it,

you find yourself crying.

i felt this.

the same spot,

i'm alone,

sitting here while the wind blows,

moon above my head,

its cold outside but i stay still,

recalling our memories,

cause thats all i have.

big brown eyes

looking confused,

in front a mirror,

she sees a girl,

then,

she closes her eyes,

and sees a woman,

so done with the world,

that she is ready to fight.

at this moment, they could have been together,

cuddling on his bed,

but,

different state

so they separate.