I started thinking about global warming and artifical intelligence. Its not so far way, it waits us around the corner. Which jobs will survive then im asking myself?

a lot of IT jobs. Here i find myself in graphic design, but im really not so interested in doing that For the rest of my life.

For global warming.. maybe some jobs that offer infiltration and jobs for the state. Like military, police, politicans, doctors.. that always is useful.

i dont wanna do any jobs for the state.

i dont wanna have a career. I just wanna be free, live like Tarzan and Jane in Blue lagoona movie and have money Falling from the sky.

hehe

she asked me

why i dont do small talks

i said i never was person who does that

she ashed me why i dont do it if i want it

i said its because i dont realy care about all those people around me

i feel miles away from them..

they are all old people

old croatian people

im realy far away from that

im non-planet earth girl

i even live miles away from my best friends

i want other things

i dont talk about shopping

about hair saloons

and hows the wheater

i have real problems

within myself

its my spiritual life

its ecological zero waste thing

they wouldnt understand

i hope they will

untill then

i wil stay inside myself

and wait a couple of centuries

so other ppl will come to the same line with me

until then

i will already be

far away into the woods

with weapons, fire and cave home

i will eat wild animals,

humans even, if needed

and they will finally achive to be vegans

who cannot survive this struggle

this strugle of global warming

its the war for survival

the thoughest will survive

mental stability

physical awarness

and oneself doctors

are needed

be there

i dont care

i know the way

thats why..im in a war with everyone.

Sometimes at night

I go out to the park alone

I sneak around slowly

Theres a feeling inside me

That makes me untamed

Wild like an animal

Chasing the prey

There is also fear

To be chased by a lion

I jump on tall trees

I climb to the rocky walls

I jump from altitudes to the ground

Like my life depends upon this

If i dont do it im dead

Thats what motivates me

Thats what triggers me

To move on

To entertain oneself

Its imagination

Its fear

Its hunger

Its the hunt itself

Hunt for survival

I love u boy why dont you come

are u crazy

whatsup with u whats up with me

why i even like u?

i should not be bothered

i cant stop thinking about last night when i saw u,

when u came so inadvanced, incredible

whats the fucking name??

oh boy get out of my mind leave me alone

where do u sleep tonight ?

is everything a lie?

who am i to obly ?

omg whats this word even about?

we are untouchable,

my words are useless when i cant speak them,

pls come and kill me with ur gun

i know u have it because u wear ur golden necklace all the time

oh you

I started dreaming about u recently.

That means its been along time

since you inhabited my subconscious

And its been even longer since I saw you for the last time.

My dreams love you,

You're always the one that likes to be seen and who

Is a new love for me to achive with.

I started daydreaming about you and me

On the top of the roof of my old garage laying on the sun

Listening to the spring,

looking at the sky,

Drinking hibiscus tea and

reading psychology books..

You stopped being gay since u met me.

From the moment your eyes saw mine for the first time

I knew theres something about you.

That was the moment you entered into my mind forever

And I cant let u go.

There is still hope I will see u again..

One day, one moment,

I will take u by the hand

Behind the bushes we will melt

And finally become

one of my sweetest dreams

again.

And I ask myself; who you would like to be with, dear,

locked in four walls?

Would you like him maybe?

Or the one that kept you like gold in his hands?

You also think of that little one who has a gift for music..

Or would you prefer that rich man who pampered you with his touch?

Whom are you waiting for, dear, tell me, why are you alone every night?

Share your secrets with someone now

just to bring restlessness and longing to life.

The present moment will then stop,

You will ably step into the ship of your own fortune

Which will take you far away to tame the waves together

And watching sunsets every evening

While the waiter is pouring you wine

While the lips are warm, they merge.

Tell me who you dream about, who do you want?

Surrender me your peace,

Don't give me yourself,

Hold it, take it

Embrace me, dear!

You will rip me apart

Take away everything we have

Just bcs you havent put effort

You wanted to be in peace

And smoke your cigarettes with coffee

With last money you own.

Then your crisis will come smashing my doors

Begging me to buy you your sweetest dreams:

Cigarettes and coffee.

When I say I wont, its

''Coffee or cigarettes,

Cigarettes or coffee,

One must be or I shall die!''

Maybe even better if you shall die

Ill get my own peace with any effort.

How nice this life is!

Teaching me what others have done erroneously

And giving me the same lessons

which are difficult to resist re doing.

Thank you thank you thank you !