Lemon lies

sugar coated

shards

of deception

I wanted

a taste

of tart juice

on my tongue

but you blocked

my way

while I hungered

for

what you had

dangling

beyond my reach.

I watch from afar,

and try not to cry,

She's perfect for you;

why aren't I?

You ask how I am,

and I tell you I'm fine.

I won't tell you the truth;

I can't cross that line.

My jealousy flares,

but I try not to show.

You mean too much to me,

but you'll never know.

Not sure I can fake it,

but I'll continue to try.

So what if it hurts?

It's better to lie.

Lemon eyes and perfect lies

Your weapons brandished at me

Blinded by sweet words of grace

A dangerous game played we

Smitten by unwavering faith

Round the corner I did not see

Hidden behind a perfect smile

Another, not one, not two, but three

Again I traded my heart and soul

For a mere moment of ecstasy

Ignoring the embers of burning doubt

Dreaming instead I deny tragedy

Lemon eyes and perfect lies

Your weapons brandished at me

Blinded by sweet words of grace

A dangerous game played we.

First came the evy,

directed at me.

Wanting everything I had,

but not the flaws she was to blind to see.

The anger followed,

and I'm shure she felt hollowed.

Seeming to have nothing,

since self-pity was as she had,

she felt much greif, and she wallowed.

How much she wanted my stuff,

led her to bluff.

No matter what she stole with lies,

she never had enough.

She began to grow stronger,

as I grew meak.

Her reign grew longer,

and she made me weak.

She wanted my life, but she still had her own.

Whatever she lost would cause her to moan,

no one could have what she didn't,

and her anger caused her to rip her life

into peices that could never be sewn.

So let this be a lesson to all,

if you begin to envy, you will begin to fall.

Trapped in a web of lies and schemes,

you would lose all your hopes, and lose all your dreams.

Irish green eyes of

dreamy lies if only

I weren’t the one

untrue

hiding the traces

in jeoulous places

all it chased away

was you

My time, in your way

spending days, wishing

I had a smile, like yours

A sun light for the butterflies

A beautiful spirit, up on high

You flew past it all, catching on

Pretending you couldn’t see

the green, jealous fields of

every lie.

,

In the beginning

it's always great.

It's different this time.

This one's all butterflies,

stargazing, and late-night

deep emotional conversations.

Then it's one angry outburst,

but it's an isolated incident!

He's really sorry, and swears

it'll never happen again.

"I just love you so much and

I can't imagine losing you."

He's damaged,

but he's working on himself!

He has trust issues,

but he's just looking

for a good therapist.

He's going through

my phone and reading

texts from months before

we even met eachother.

But it's just to help

calm his anxiety.

I know when to get out

of a toxic situation.

Hes showing up at my

house at 3 in the a.m.

He was listening to my

phone call from outside

my open window.

Another even angrier,

more dramatic outburst.

Two days later, there's another.

Maybe I need to set some

very firm clear boundaries.

"Can we talk?"

This is not okay,

I have a right to privacy.

Well what're you hiding?

I'm like this because you

don't know how to communicate.

Well sorry I can't be like

your ex that you still love.

This has already gone too far.

I let too much slide,

for my mental healths sake,

I can't do this anymore.

We need to go our seperate ways.

Why am I being punished?

If you loved me you wouldn't

do this to me, to us!

I thought you cared about me?

You are my true soulmate,

I'll never love anyone ever again!

Maybe I'd be better off dead!

I won't give in,

I won't give in.

Stand your ground,

you've been through

this all before,

you know how

this story goes.

He's not going to change,

and it's not my fault.

His reactions are not

my responsibility,

but my own actions are,

my mental well-being is.

Say Goodbye.

...

To an inexperienced empath,

it is their fault,

what they said, or did,

the actions they took,

the feelings they felt-

this is why this person is upset,

so they feel obligated to fix it.

Narcissists will exploit a kind heart.

They will lie, twist things you say,

play the victim, guilt trip you,

threaten their own or your safety.

They work in patterns,

if you catch it early on

you will save yourself

so much mental anguish.

Don't ignore the signs,

if there are red flags,

do not hesitate to leave.

You shouldn't have to

explain or justify their actions.

You're only responsibility is yourself.

https://theprose.com/dominospice

#abusive

You paint such a pretty picture

with those lemon eyes

but little do I know

they are just a sweet disguise

a second of rapture

a moment on the lips

till I’m stuck forever

wrapped round those fingertips

It happened suddenly,

Or so I thought...

She was there all of the time,

Just waiting in the wings.

As the days grew colder,

And the leaves began to die,

So too did the love we shared.

And then, there she was,

With her glistening grin.

You were blinded by her song.

And that is when I knew,

She had been there, ready to take you.

When I look back on those days,

I realize my mistake.

I trusted an old friend,

But her jealousy turned to deceit

And she won in the end.

something must be wrong

i don't get jealous

i wish i did

it could have prevented this pain

which has polluted every sense and emotion

i understand there's beauty i can't match

and believe there's no harm in looking or daydreaming

and i certainly understand envy over what other's have

yet i value working hard for what i want

i don't want to be jealous

or feel jealous

i just want to trust, love and laugh

i've caused jealousy

and been confronted by it

which only places me in a state of emergencey

it's usually difficult to calm the situation

and retaining respect become a challenge

oh, but looking back

jealousy could have prevented my heart from fully breaking

deception and betrayal are inevitable

what will be will be done

and the one who is deceived will need to survive

from my experience, jealousy is maddening

yet, now, it seems like instinct kicking in

preparation for what could be

not feeling it is like being blind

no worries, i'll pick up the pieces

and love harder

which will entail a degree of jealousy

with the hope that paranoia won't take over

that's what i'm afraid

i can't let that happen

that's the greatest cause of deception and jealousy