I’m not jealous
I watch from afar,
and try not to cry,
She's perfect for you;
why aren't I?
You ask how I am,
and I tell you I'm fine.
I won't tell you the truth;
I can't cross that line.
My jealousy flares,
but I try not to show.
You mean too much to me,
but you'll never know.
Not sure I can fake it,
but I'll continue to try.
So what if it hurts?
It's better to lie.
Love Story
Lemon eyes and perfect lies
Your weapons brandished at me
Blinded by sweet words of grace
A dangerous game played we
Smitten by unwavering faith
Round the corner I did not see
Hidden behind a perfect smile
Another, not one, not two, but three
Again I traded my heart and soul
For a mere moment of ecstasy
Ignoring the embers of burning doubt
Dreaming instead I deny tragedy
Lemon eyes and perfect lies
Your weapons brandished at me
Blinded by sweet words of grace
A dangerous game played we.
What Envy Does
First came the evy,
directed at me.
Wanting everything I had,
but not the flaws she was to blind to see.
The anger followed,
and I'm shure she felt hollowed.
Seeming to have nothing,
since self-pity was as she had,
she felt much greif, and she wallowed.
How much she wanted my stuff,
led her to bluff.
No matter what she stole with lies,
she never had enough.
She began to grow stronger,
as I grew meak.
Her reign grew longer,
and she made me weak.
She wanted my life, but she still had her own.
Whatever she lost would cause her to moan,
no one could have what she didn't,
and her anger caused her to rip her life
into peices that could never be sewn.
So let this be a lesson to all,
if you begin to envy, you will begin to fall.
Trapped in a web of lies and schemes,
you would lose all your hopes, and lose all your dreams.
Dreamy Lies
Irish green eyes of
dreamy lies if only
I weren’t the one
untrue
hiding the traces
in jeoulous places
all it chased away
was you
My time, in your way
spending days, wishing
I had a smile, like yours
A sun light for the butterflies
A beautiful spirit, up on high
You flew past it all, catching on
Pretending you couldn’t see
the green, jealous fields of
every lie.
,
Say Goodbye
In the beginning
it's always great.
It's different this time.
This one's all butterflies,
stargazing, and late-night
deep emotional conversations.
Then it's one angry outburst,
but it's an isolated incident!
He's really sorry, and swears
it'll never happen again.
"I just love you so much and
I can't imagine losing you."
He's damaged,
but he's working on himself!
He has trust issues,
but he's just looking
for a good therapist.
He's going through
my phone and reading
texts from months before
we even met eachother.
But it's just to help
calm his anxiety.
I know when to get out
of a toxic situation.
Hes showing up at my
house at 3 in the a.m.
He was listening to my
phone call from outside
my open window.
Another even angrier,
more dramatic outburst.
Two days later, there's another.
Maybe I need to set some
very firm clear boundaries.
"Can we talk?"
This is not okay,
I have a right to privacy.
Well what're you hiding?
I'm like this because you
don't know how to communicate.
Well sorry I can't be like
your ex that you still love.
This has already gone too far.
I let too much slide,
for my mental healths sake,
I can't do this anymore.
We need to go our seperate ways.
Why am I being punished?
If you loved me you wouldn't
do this to me, to us!
I thought you cared about me?
You are my true soulmate,
I'll never love anyone ever again!
Maybe I'd be better off dead!
I won't give in,
I won't give in.
Stand your ground,
you've been through
this all before,
you know how
this story goes.
He's not going to change,
and it's not my fault.
His reactions are not
my responsibility,
but my own actions are,
my mental well-being is.
Say Goodbye.
...
To an inexperienced empath,
it is their fault,
what they said, or did,
the actions they took,
the feelings they felt-
this is why this person is upset,
so they feel obligated to fix it.
Narcissists will exploit a kind heart.
They will lie, twist things you say,
play the victim, guilt trip you,
threaten their own or your safety.
They work in patterns,
if you catch it early on
you will save yourself
so much mental anguish.
Don't ignore the signs,
if there are red flags,
do not hesitate to leave.
You shouldn't have to
explain or justify their actions.
You're only responsibility is yourself.
https://theprose.com/dominospice
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Was it really sudden?
It happened suddenly,
Or so I thought...
She was there all of the time,
Just waiting in the wings.
As the days grew colder,
And the leaves began to die,
So too did the love we shared.
And then, there she was,
With her glistening grin.
You were blinded by her song.
And that is when I knew,
She had been there, ready to take you.
When I look back on those days,
I realize my mistake.
I trusted an old friend,
But her jealousy turned to deceit
And she won in the end.
Jealousy + Deception = Paranoia
something must be wrong
i don't get jealous
i wish i did
it could have prevented this pain
which has polluted every sense and emotion
i understand there's beauty i can't match
and believe there's no harm in looking or daydreaming
and i certainly understand envy over what other's have
yet i value working hard for what i want
i don't want to be jealous
or feel jealous
i just want to trust, love and laugh
i've caused jealousy
and been confronted by it
which only places me in a state of emergencey
it's usually difficult to calm the situation
and retaining respect become a challenge
oh, but looking back
jealousy could have prevented my heart from fully breaking
deception and betrayal are inevitable
what will be will be done
and the one who is deceived will need to survive
from my experience, jealousy is maddening
yet, now, it seems like instinct kicking in
preparation for what could be
not feeling it is like being blind
no worries, i'll pick up the pieces
and love harder
which will entail a degree of jealousy
with the hope that paranoia won't take over
that's what i'm afraid
i can't let that happen
that's the greatest cause of deception and jealousy