1: what if I never find love

2: what if my friends hate me

3: what if I’m being lied to

4: what if I can’t protect my family

5: what if I am never okay

6: what if I don’t want to be okay

7: I want to write, not waste my time on sleep

One of the reasons I can’t sleep

Is you

Two lips

Kissing me all night!

Three blind mice is also in my head

After singing it to her all day

Four Seasons’ songs singing me awake

Five Guys burgers also laying heavy

In my gut and

Six Flags like nausea swirling my head as

The room spins

Seven Flags waves splash my mind as I try to sleep

Whilst drowning in awake.

Probably no explanations needed… but just in case

:)

x

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDxhugRKZ8g

http://www.fiveguys.com/menu

https://www.sixflags.com/

https://www.texasstandard.org/stories/in-laredo-its-seven-flags-over-texas/

https://www.visitlaredo.com/business/seven-flags-splash-park

Oh

and finally xxx

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P8JEm4d6Wu4

Their visits are more regular now

I don’t know why

They haven’t been around for years, 50 years

They are there sitting on the foot of my bed

Standing at the doorway

Looking in my window

No one talks, they just stare into the glow my heart shows

My heart beats, theirs no more

They are the seven that stayed

I am the one that came home

Every night they visit now

Sleep abandons me

They want me to return to the field where they fell

Maybe soon my friends

We will all be solders at peace

And we will all sleep again

The books in my bag are heavy,

Heavier than the lids of my eye,

So I stay awake to finish,

Even though I’m too tired to try.

Finally I give up and give in,

To the incessant urge to sleep,

But as soon as I shut my eyes,

I count the pages instead of sheep.

In the stasis of being semi-awake,

Memories of the day flood my mind,

Like the time I pushed a pull door,

Or when I said something unkind.

Suddenly I fear tomorrow.

The test that I didn’t study for,

The friend I really don’t want to see,

The class I hate right to my core.

I fear the day after that, too.

What if my bus gets into a crash?

Or a dormant volcano erupts?

Coating life as I know it in ash?

My life isn’t ready to end yet,

And I’m forced to think about that too,

If I die the day after the next,

Without doing the things I wanted to do.

My family’s last memory of me,

Would be how I missed dinner again,

And how I would rather go out,

Than see my little brother turn ten.

I’m a bad person, I realize,

And my life is too dark to end now,

I need time to become better,

But even then, I don’t know how.

So instead of sleeping, I’m awake,

Thinking about how I’ll be better,

Tomorrow, just in case the world ends,

I’ll write all my loved ones a letter.

I’m sorry, I’ll write with a heavy heart,

I never deserved such good friends,

Or family, or anything at all,

I wish I could have changed before the end.

The words float through my mind slowly,

Chasing the idea of sleep away,

A tear rolls down my cheek as I swear,

I’ll be better, starting today.

1) I won't pass my test tomorrow.

2) The earth is dying, and my future along with it.

3) I don't understand what is going on in AP Physics.

4) Anybody can come into my school at anytime and shoot me.

5) I want to shave my head but don't want to stared at.

6) People are being attacked for their identities. Am I next?

7) I don't know want is going to happen next.

reasons i can't sleep,

you want to know why...

because i'm a smoker

and i just want one more,

i've done too much amphetamine

plus i need to score some more,

i've got this pent up anxiety

so i'm busy peeping out the window at 3am in the morn,

its the only time i have to myself

once the clock hits 12,

i am starving

yet there is nothing to eat,

my damn dogs are barking

because they hate the neighbors just like me

and because i'm fucking horny

and my old man has gone to sleep!

@fabulous

#7reasonsicantsleepchallenge

#humor

1. Clyde stretches his long heavy body out diagonally on our queen size bed. Have you ever tried to sleep in a small triangular bed? It is impossbile to do sober.

2. Clyde needs his thunder jacket, a valium, and to be on top of me due to the weather.

3. Clyde hears wind, a car door, or any noise and begins barking as if we had a home invasion.

4. Clyde alerts me that he needs to go pee with his high-pitched whining voice.

5. Clyde has eaten the unknown in the backyard while peeing and is now heaving the insides of his stomach at the end of the bed.

6. Clyde slept all day so he wakes up ready to play fetch at 4 am

7. I toss and turn with thoughts of what I will do when Clyde goes to the rainbow bridge.

I can't sleep because of you, I miss us, how will I ever pull through.

I can't sleep because of pain, so much hurt I feel drained.

I can't sleep because of time, too busy away making a dime.

I can't sleep because of desire, my want for you grows like a ball of fire.

I can't sleep because of dreams, neverending doom and plaque it seems.

I can't sleep because of worry, never enough time, always in a hurry.

I can't sleep because I'm lonely, without you my lover, my one and only.

These are 7 reasons I can't sleep, there are more if I search my soul quite deep.

I can't sleep

My thoughts are all knotted, and I need to untangle them

They're so simple once they're all laid out in a straight line

I can't sleep

My heart's emotions are overflowing from the barricade that's held them back all day

After the tears and heartache, I feel at peace

I can't sleep

My feet are travelling imaginary roads, on a fantastical adventure only I can see

The road is beautiful, I never want to reach my destination

I can't sleep

The shadows of doubt haunting the corners of my mind are ready to attack

I must defend the torch light I have left in all this darkness

I can't sleep

I am in the middle of a conversation with an imaginary person of my own creation

The coffee smells delicious and the shop we are in is small and cozy

I can't sleep

I am exploring who I am and my place in this world, realizing how small I am

But also realizing that a particle in the universe is a universe all on its own

I can't sleep

There's a show that's got me hooked, and I need to watch the next episode

3am: I'm still watching it as I drift in and out of dreams

1) I have insomnia. Not the "I fall asleep late" insomnia that all people claim they have, I have actual diagnosed insomnia.

2) I feel if I fall asleep, I'll miss something historical or epic in life.

3) My mind keeps thinking of other stories to write.

4) I work alternating shifts, so if my phone rings, I have to be able to hear it and respond.

5) If I drink too much coffee then, ya know.

6) If I finally fall asleep, I'm afraid to oversleep.

7) I don't know...I just don't sometimes.