You have nerve and silver tongue

Got your way since you were young

There’s no moral quality

You’re a serpent in a tree

You were caught and that is fact

Had the chance to leave with tact

But instead you act a fool

Hoping you can still look cool

Every “friend” you think you had

Really thinks you’re pretty sad

You have zero loyalty

How loyal do you think they’ll be?

You’re not as smart as I once thought

Looking back how hard I fought

Just to prove my worth and love

Thought you fit me like a glove

Stood behind you thick and thin

Gave up me so you could win

Had the world when you had me

Now you’ve lost your dignity

There is nothing you can say

That can even hope to sway

My decision set in stone

By what I saw on your cell phone

So keep talking all that shit

What you say does not mean spit

No one is listening to you

They all know it’s nothing new

Won’t be long before they see

You aren’t who you claim to be

When you’ve no one on your side

Where will you run and hide?

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The funny thing about all this is that I didn’t expect being alone to be this lonely. Stupid, I know- everything I've ever done has become so stupid, stupid, stupid.

The past few days have been nothing and looking back I know that nothing I did was ever anything, not really. I couldn't turn my thoughts and feelings into material objects, things I could touch and tase and feel. I was so stupid, stupid, stupid, to think there was something there.

There was a girl. Of course, there's always a girl. I was in love. We were in love but I blew it by looking deep within myself and I realised that nothing was there, stupid- we could have been wonderful.

She was wonderful. She thought I was too which is what scared me I guess, stupid, stupid, stupid- I should have embraced it.

Her eyes were like the night sky and I fell into them too quickly, didn't think, couldn't think, and I wanted to get out, stupid, now I'm stranded on earth and she's somewhere out there and I miss her. I miss her.

Because that's the thing about being alone, it's fucking lonely, why didn't I know that before all this? Stupid, this is all so stupid.

There's a space in my heart where my chest should be, and her name rattles around my ribcage. Stupid.

Maybe it will grow back, maybe I will become whole again and I will find her and tell her that I'm ready for her to love me. And maybe she'll take me and maybe she won't- I don't care.

I'm just tired of being stupid.