The more I listen to your words

The farther away

I get from me

From being happy

From being sane

From being free

The more I listen to your words

The more I convince myself

You are right

I am worthless

I am nothing

I am wrong

The more I listen to your words

The farther I sink

Into the hole

That is depression

That is sadness

That is despair

The more I listen to your words

The less I notice

Everyone who cares

Who wants to save me

Who wants me to be happy

Who wants me to know I’m loved

The more I listen to your words

The more I begin realize

There is no escape

I’m stuck

I’m lost

I’m alone

Save me

The more I listen to your words

The more overjoyed I become

The more I begin

To emerge myself in this life

I have so willingly joined

It’s so nice to be able to say

That I am happy

And mean it

I got used to lying about how I was

“I’m fine,”

I would say

It was never quite true

But now, I want everyone to know

I’m okay now!

Everything is fine!

I am happy!

It seems that I’ve achieved a goal

One that I thought I would be working towards

For the majority of my life

But no

I was wrong

I’ve never been so glad to be wrong

You just came into my life

So suddenly

I didn’t have time to comprehend

What you were doing

I don’t think you meant to make me fall in love

But you did

You fixed me

Put together all my broken parts

Without even trying

You improved my life

And now, I could forever be content

To listen to your words

To be with you

The more I listen to your words

The more I realize

I am home

Drowning me,

Drowning me,

In my own emotions.

I know you don’t mean to,

But you are,

Drowning me to death.

Every time I see you it hurts,

In a good way,

And a bad way.

Whenever I hear you voice,

It makes me shiver,

Though the sound heals me.

But the more I listen to your words,

The more I realize,

That you are broken too.

The more I listen to your words,

The more in love I fall.

The more I listen to your words,

The more I long for you.

It's an indescribable feeling,

But I crave it.

Every second without you,

Is painful.

Every second we're together,

Is heavenly.

Others may not understand,

They may be jealous,

They may hate us,

But it doesn't matter.

Because,

The more I listen to your words.

The happier I become.

The more I listen to your words,

The lonelier I feel.

You act as if I'm nothing,

Thinking I cannot deal.

Why do I listen to you?

For you share only happiness,

And tease me about how,

My life is such a crazy mess.

Don’t talk about your lover,

Talk to me seriously,

Tell me your problems,

I will listen to you kindly.

You act like you are perfect,

And I am nothing to you,

But still I say that,

I will be true.

Why do I waste my time,

On people like this,

I do not know,

But it’s people like you I miss.