Spin of the Clouds
I will dance
in amethyst shadows,
wrapped in translucence
in daisy chain, twisted
in tendrils of hair,
swaying in blooms
of the wind,
tangoing in world
draped in black lace,
in bare feet,
to the end of my toes,
shimmying my heart out
to the end of love
spinning to edge
in the spin
of the clouds,
Today you will...
Today You Will.
Yes, you will; or you will not;
But first, you will.
You will pick up where left off;
You will, you must.
You will note the time o'clock;
You will, you will!
You will see the actor who;
And then you will...
Today you will
Just do it. Come on.
You know that thing in the back of your mind.
That unexplored passion that's eating away at you right now.
You can feel it.
It's warm, right? In your throat?
Doesn't it feel uncomfortable?
Is it something you've thought about a lot?
Maybe the only thing you think about anymore?
You really, really want to do it.
It is so obvious.
Your body is begging you. Listen to it.
Whatever that thing is that want to do so badly.
Whatever your body is begging for.
(As long as it isn't something bad, like murdering somebody. Let's keep it PG.)
The acceptance of hurting
Today you will accept the hurt
and pain that caused heartbreak.
Today you will accept the hurt and
pain that caused self-doubt.
It hurts because it was real.
More real than the smiles,
more real than the laughs.
It was never one big thing,
but merely an abundance of little things.
Today you will accept the pain,
because you want the laughs.
It hurts because it was genuine.
The friendship and connection
only has to happen once.
Once to know a feeling
that is desired to be felt again.
A feeling of compassion,
a feeling of purpose.
All good things come to an end,
but is it really the end
if you hold on to those moments?
Keep them as a photograph
stored in your memory,
replay them like your favorite movie,
and revisit them in your
thoughts and dreams.
It is okay to hurt,
that meant you lived and loved.
That meant you created moments,
moments worth living for.
and today you will encourage it, not fear it.
Today you will stop procrastinating
Your desire to write is crippling. You sit down at the computer and after the first page you stop and question yourself. "Why am I wasting my time," the voice inside your head squeaks.
Don't listen, just write, and write, and write. Exorcise the words from inside and let them come alive on the screen. Stop looking for perfection, it does not exist. Spit those words out and once they are out of you treat them kindly.
Some of those words need to go away, some need to be replaced with other words, some will help tell your story, some will not. What you need to do is stop procrastinating and tell yourself that you are, in fact, a writer.
Now go write and stop until you finish that first draft! Then go drink a half bottle of something and begin the second draft.
if you must do one thing
today, you will breathe in.
today, you will allow something to fall.
today, you will pick something up.
today, you will continue going,
for today, you will not end.
for today, you will not die.
for today, you will not give in,
for today, you will want to,
for today, you will resist it,
for today, you will realize that,
for today, you will perservere,
for today, you will be loved.