You.. you are my hero

Everyone else has been zero

No one ever was nice

But you?

      You saved me twice!

I was girl invisible

You were boy most loveable

No one ever 

   looked at me

You had an entire sea

When you chased 

   those kids away

I choked and had

    no words to say

You helped me up 

   onto my feet

Swear you lingered

    at my cheek

A time in cafeteria

Tray knocked

    to Nigeria

Just before I 

   would have cried

There you were right

    by my side

Loved you more than

    just a friend

Never wanted us to end

Talked for hours

    on the phone

I no longer felt alone

Then you took me everywhere

Had girls help me 

     with my hair

Everyone knew who you were

Soon I became popular

One day like a hurricane

Came through the doors

    Enia Raine

As I watched your 

   eyes meet hers

Turn back to me

    I felt so sure

Now it's been almost 2 months

I'm sitting here

    feel like a dunce

Since the day that she walked in

Your eyes have not

    met mine again

Every day wait for your call

You called once 

    for your new ball

Then you sent your brother by

Did he tell you

    that I cried?

Enia Raine, the moon and stars

To you I may as well

    be Mars

I heard you asked her to our prom

The one we made

    a promise on

How could we have spent 

   so much time

Without you having

    become mine?

Did I mistake 

   the way you felt?

When every day you

   made me melt?

When I remember 

   things you said

Enia Raine just fits instead

It was just imaginary

I'd ever be the 

   one you'd marry.

I cant even say bad things

The boy who

    gave me everything

If not for you I would be dead

You made high school

    fun instead

Broke my heart, 

   won't find it all

Wish that just once

    you would call

But you are always to this day

My hero chased

       demons

             away.

I tried your phone,

A call a day,

A text (read but no reply),

A knock on the door,

That you ignore.

You've grown too busy,

Grown tall,

While I'm still small, unpopular, ignored.

Remember we used to laugh together,

At cheerleaders obsessed with looks,

Jocks chasing after girls like puppies,

We just watched the show.

Now your the actress,

The beauty queen in red,

Followed by your pet.

Your laughing with friends,

So why am I here?

Why am I the joke?

I remember running to you in tears,

Falling into your shoulder;

You always caught me in safe embrace,

Now you just turn away,

I'm OK.

I can tell your smile is fake,

You may fool the others,

I know you inside out,

You parents split,

Your playing tug of war,

So why do you not see me on the battlefield,

The soldier on your right.

You've got a hundred friends,

I used to be one of them,

I've forgotten why I'm not.

Why are you the winner,

I am barely together,

Holding on to fragments,

Clinging to memory and happiness past;

Surrounded by the empty space,

That used to be your place,

Mine filled by all that you now love.

Have you ever given your all to someone only to have it thrown back in your face

Have you ever tried so hard to make somebody happy always putting yourself in second place

Have you ever wondered how could I have made things better where did I go wrong

What or when did it all change why does it hurt for so long

Have you ever felt so emotionally exhausted that you feel in time you will fall

So you keep a strong heart knowing just one little breeze would bring down it all

Have you ever blamed yourself when you only did your best

Even though along the way you lost so much but at the same time still felt blessed

Have you ever tried?

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When you came

Like the welcome breeze in Summer

When you came and spread your warmth and happiness

Into my life

When you came

Like a lion, full of courage

When you came

Like fire, and consumed me

I realised what I had been searching for

The sky was no longer a dead end

The road dust no more

And I not alone

You made you world like your words;

Sweet colours painting pretty pictures

You made the world like your mind;

A mystery, a brief delicacy

You were the door left ajar

To some unseen world.

When you came

I knew you would be my

Last line in this brave romance.

@AMY

I'm pretty sick of this parasitic symbiosis,

I've host this far too long and it's wrong.

Wrong to let you leech me. Reach me,

Help me for once, as a friend, out of love.

I'm down, and I've been down for a while.

Whilst you sit and stare and wait for me,

To be ready to serve, whatever you want, 

On a plate, for free. Whilst I pay emotionally.

The emotional fee. Like you would know.

No! You're a robot unless it's about you.

You make out that you offer me so much,

But doing your work just isn't my bag.

So why am I carrying it? Again and again?

You depend and I live in the deep end,

Drowning in my pain and loss, I Cried,

For yours, tried to offer my help to closed doors.

Well I'm done.

she will never write his name with as much love as i did

or do, still.

he begs for your love and pretends he never wanted it when it finally comes

Asleep at night, he imagines her scent,

His own guardian angel, heaven sent.

Until that day,

She ran away,

She had no idea, how much she meant.

Enduring each day in a wretched trance,

Wishing, once again, he’d asked her to dance.

To their favorite song,

That now doesn’t belong,

Each inch of him yearning for one more chance.

Burdened by grief so completely profound.

Internal laments silently resound.

Where she did go,

He’ll never know,

Into thin air, never more to be found.

A friendship like no other

Broken from the mere reason of her

Time passed, we grew

But that was no reason for distance to stay true

Emails unanswered

Could she feel my frustrations, I wondered

One day all things broke loose

But I no longer cared what I'll lose

A friendship this toxic

Can make anyone go sick

Just the thought of her makes me want to tick

Fine, go away

Begone

For better friendships are on their way

Our eyes met from across the room.  We simply bonded, instantly.  From that moment, we were always there for each other, like two peas in a pod.

But that was two years ago.  Now I feel like you are slowly abandoning me.  Driving me down a highway, then dropping me off without a backwards glance.  Leaving me behind.  You don't call me anymore, and you never pick up any of my calls.  You don't answer the door for me anymore.  You simply don't care.

What happened?  Where did we go wrong?  If I could reverse time to when I could lean my head on your shoulder, your silky hair brushing my face, I would.  

I tried to mend our friendship like stitching a rip in a pair of jeans.  But that rip only grew bigger as I weaved the needle faster and faster, desperate.  Soon, the pair of jeans was torn in half, my heart shattered into shards.  

My last glimpse of you was when you were at the neighborhood Starbucks, another girl's head leaning on your shoulder, you whispering secret words to her.  You have left me and found another friend to share a piece of your heart with.

The next day, you vanished.  Leaving town without a trace, leaving me and our memories behind.