I tried your phone,
A call a day,
A text (read but no reply),
A knock on the door,
That you ignore.
You've grown too busy,
While I'm still small, unpopular, ignored.
Remember we used to laugh together,
At cheerleaders obsessed with looks,
Jocks chasing after girls like puppies,
We just watched the show.
Now your the actress,
The beauty queen in red,
Followed by your pet.
Your laughing with friends,
So why am I here?
Why am I the joke?
I remember running to you in tears,
Falling into your shoulder;
You always caught me in safe embrace,
Now you just turn away,
I can tell your smile is fake,
You may fool the others,
I know you inside out,
You parents split,
Your playing tug of war,
So why do you not see me on the battlefield,
The soldier on your right.
You've got a hundred friends,
I used to be one of them,
I've forgotten why I'm not.
Why are you the winner,
I am barely together,
Holding on to fragments,
Clinging to memory and happiness past;
Surrounded by the empty space,
That used to be your place,
Mine filled by all that you now love.
Have you ever given your all to someone only to have it thrown back in your face
Have you ever tried so hard to make somebody happy always putting yourself in second place
Have you ever wondered how could I have made things better where did I go wrong
What or when did it all change why does it hurt for so long
Have you ever felt so emotionally exhausted that you feel in time you will fall
So you keep a strong heart knowing just one little breeze would bring down it all
Have you ever blamed yourself when you only did your best
Even though along the way you lost so much but at the same time still felt blessed
Have you ever tried?
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You.. you are my hero
Everyone else has been zero
No one ever was nice
You saved me twice!
I was girl invisible
You were boy most loveable
No one ever
looked at me
You had an entire sea
When you chased
those kids away
I choked and had
no words to say
You helped me up
onto my feet
Swear you lingered
at my cheek
A time in cafeteria
Just before I
would have cried
There you were right
by my side
Loved you more than
just a friend
Never wanted us to end
Talked for hours
on the phone
I no longer felt alone
Then you took me everywhere
Had girls help me
with my hair
Everyone knew who you were
Soon I became popular
One day like a hurricane
Came through the doors
As I watched your
eyes meet hers
Turn back to me
I felt so sure
Now it's been almost 2 months
I'm sitting here
feel like a dunce
Since the day that she walked in
Your eyes have not
met mine again
Every day wait for your call
You called once
for your new ball
Then you sent your brother by
Did he tell you
that I cried?
Enia Raine, the moon and stars
To you I may as well
I heard you asked her to our prom
The one we made
a promise on
How could we have spent
so much time
Without you having
Did I mistake
the way you felt?
When every day you
made me melt?
When I remember
things you said
Enia Raine just fits instead
It was just imaginary
I'd ever be the
one you'd marry.
I cant even say bad things
The boy who
gave me everything
If not for you I would be dead
You made high school
Broke my heart,
won't find it all
Wish that just once
you would call
But you are always to this day
My hero chased
When You Came
When you came
Like the welcome breeze in Summer
When you came and spread your warmth and happiness
Into my life
When you came
Like a lion, full of courage
When you came
Like fire, and consumed me
I realised what I had been searching for
The sky was no longer a dead end
The road dust no more
And I not alone
You made you world like your words;
Sweet colours painting pretty pictures
You made the world like your mind;
A mystery, a brief delicacy
You were the door left ajar
To some unseen world.
When you came
I knew you would be my
Last line in this brave romance.
I’ll probably be back
I'm pretty sick of this parasitic symbiosis,
I've host this far too long and it's wrong.
Wrong to let you leech me. Reach me,
Help me for once, as a friend, out of love.
I'm down, and I've been down for a while.
Whilst you sit and stare and wait for me,
To be ready to serve, whatever you want,
On a plate, for free. Whilst I pay emotionally.
The emotional fee. Like you would know.
No! You're a robot unless it's about you.
You make out that you offer me so much,
But doing your work just isn't my bag.
So why am I carrying it? Again and again?
You depend and I live in the deep end,
Drowning in my pain and loss, I Cried,
For yours, tried to offer my help to closed doors.
Well I'm done.
A friendship like no other
Broken from the mere reason of her
Time passed, we grew
But that was no reason for distance to stay true
Could she feel my frustrations, I wondered
One day all things broke loose
But I no longer cared what I'll lose
A friendship this toxic
Can make anyone go sick
Just the thought of her makes me want to tick
Fine, go away
For better friendships are on their way
Asleep at night, he imagines her scent,
His own guardian angel, heaven sent.
Until that day,
She ran away,
She had no idea, how much she meant.
Enduring each day in a wretched trance,
Wishing, once again, he’d asked her to dance.
To their favorite song,
That now doesn’t belong,
Each inch of him yearning for one more chance.
Burdened by grief so completely profound.
Internal laments silently resound.
Where she did go,
He’ll never know,
Into thin air, never more to be found.
Our eyes met from across the room. We simply bonded, instantly. From that moment, we were always there for each other, like two peas in a pod.
But that was two years ago. Now I feel like you are slowly abandoning me. Driving me down a highway, then dropping me off without a backwards glance. Leaving me behind. You don't call me anymore, and you never pick up any of my calls. You don't answer the door for me anymore. You simply don't care.
What happened? Where did we go wrong? If I could reverse time to when I could lean my head on your shoulder, your silky hair brushing my face, I would.
I tried to mend our friendship like stitching a rip in a pair of jeans. But that rip only grew bigger as I weaved the needle faster and faster, desperate. Soon, the pair of jeans was torn in half, my heart shattered into shards.
My last glimpse of you was when you were at the neighborhood Starbucks, another girl's head leaning on your shoulder, you whispering secret words to her. You have left me and found another friend to share a piece of your heart with.
The next day, you vanished. Leaving town without a trace, leaving me and our memories behind.