I stand in vanilla breeze

in tide of satin cobalt splendor

tranquility molds to my essence

turquoise ripples kiss my toes.

Pock marks in cinnamon sand

traces left by sheltering rain

I dance on the drippings

embellished by the sun.

Soul steps out of my body

and becomes one with the sea

My mind cage opens,

robe of peace, mirror of life

reflecting echoes as

sleeping ghosts awaken,

swallow me whole.

I hide between the wisps

of a lost cloud,

offering solace.

Inky sea carries me

back to my darkness

footprints diverge

fog engulfs, vision wavers.

I taste the salt

on my tongue

cascading from rivers

of tears down my face

I can’t cry any more or

there will be no space

in the sea of my life.

Time undulates,

water pools in silence.

My eyes seek rest

from the tomb of peace

Sadness defeats

as I’m faced with my grief,

crawling toward

the engulfing aquamarine

I have once known

and the sun rays

of lingering hope.

Conflicting memories, like black and white,

try to tell what's wrong, what's right,

slipping needle, slip in my bed,

try to flush you from my head

Could blame her, could blame you,

everything I've tried to do,

tried forgetting, even though,

I've never tried letting go,

Steal my youth and bruise my soul,

I take on another role,

pain may live and love might die

but I won't know until I try.

Conflicting memories, like black and white

Taught me the choice of fight or flight

But they only taught so much

Everything else was taught by your light touch

The black and white faded in your arms

The gray world showed me so many charms

Until reality caught on to our tricks

And decided to throw some stones and sticks

But they barely scratched you

While I took the pain meant for two

When you finally let me go

I saw you were blocking my room to grow

So I passed you by

Even though I was the fall guy

Too bad I am smarter than you'll ever be

And jut like that I was free

Now I'm the big bad girl,

Who is the pearl

Of her own black and white world